I am laying myself bare.

Dump it ~ I want to see it of course.

Do it ;)

Let’s have full disclosure

Yes I know I said (did I promise?;) only one more and then the shit that you all want to know.

But then it is only DRAFT. Can I get away with that? Probably not

Anyway I missed some parts out. According to my mother – and she should know – she was in labour for 26 or 28 hours. That’s wierd for a second sprog, but then I am special. It seems to suggest that you’ll have it when I’m ready.

[edit: I do like Thor’s days. I’m not saying it will be Thor’sday ~ just that I do like all that thunder and lightening. Oh dear I seam to have misspelt it again like I did seven years ago …

I’ll do one more then I’ll get to the shit that you’re all waiting for.

love,

XXX deep

I hope that you’re keeping up …

Aug 64. I looked at it at the library ~ either the 8th or the 11th, the Mirror.

Of course I was only a very young child at the time.

So what happened was my very recently married mother with a child of 30 [edit: 28] months and myself a child of six months old ran off (eloped?) with a very recently married man abandoning his wife and two very young children of his own. There’s more to it than that … like any story that’s why you do your own research and discover what happened for yourselves.

[just started this will be updated ~ check back]

So, a year or a year and a half after Profumo another political scandal although of far lesser proportion perhaps.

So again the gutter press was chasing the ‘scandal’. From my perspective a six month old child was just extra baggage to the lovers. Of course, getting chased by the trash press must have made them closer. While I was only very young at the time I have been told by my family that I was disguised as a girl to throw the trash journalists off. Very easily really even today – I was pink from a very early age ;)

[later edit: Consider my father. His ‘best friend’ has run off with his wife and both his very young sons. It must have been terribly hard for him.

[further edit: almost sounds like a Greek tragedy (although the Greek tragedies were almost moral tales)

[last edit: can we have some Pink?

Since I have committed myself to an Apologia …

do I want this published for all to know? Bollox, I lay myself bare

[Of course, you don’t have to read)

I AM REDUCED TO NOTHING, A WORTHLESS ALCOHOLIC

I AM TORMENTED

I am tormented. Now that I’ve committed to an Apologia, I look to my childhood and I am reduced to tears. There is no more alcohol left tonight to hide me from the torment that I endured. I’m talking pissed. The point is that I was not loved nor cared for. There was no-one. A child with nobody to care for him or her.

Edit: That’s why I’m so hard, that’s why I’ve been able to take so many attacks. That’s why I don’t have to rely on anyone. That’s why I’m so independent and resilient.

[further edit: Was there two issues going on back then? A scandal for the tabloids a year or so after Profumo. But was there more? A dog maybe?

[Aug 64

[64 was a leap year …

[a leap year means one more day to the end of the year …

[Lucky I didn’t say the people I wanted dead …

Hugo Chavez,

I respect you so much for bringing  Venezuela to Socialism.

Viva la revolution, sir.

The point is there are so many people watching this.

Senior Chavez, I repect you. Viva le Revolution

[Sorry about bring you in this good friend;

I need to sort it out myself

This ridulosness that people persist it

Viva la revolution